Hehe, I'm not downbeat. I've just always been more of a designer than a competitive player. I play with friends but don't really care about winning or losing and keeping up on all the counter strategies or whatnot. I've been playing AoM (mostly custom scenarios) off and on for five years and still rarely win a skirmish.
We'll get some of our best players for the recorded game so that you can see a real battle.